Give me birth!

Weeeee!

I am not that excited. But I just got back home from the movies. I went to see The Vow. It was ok. Actually it was pretty good, i think I just did expect more from it.
It even made me miss my boyfriend so I guess it was pretty good:)

While sitting there and eating the whole pot of Ben and Jerrys (Yes! I did buy the whole pot of ice cream at Wawa and stuck it in my purse and brought it in...I even packed a spoon at home in advance!), I realized that the only reason why people (I) go to movies is to eat junkfood and do not feel guilty about it. Yes. i ate ice cream...and caramel dipped apples...and chips...yup...noone else was eating though...but Sarah...But that is just why we are friends!

I am so proud of myself. I am not gonna go to details, but I am proud of myself.) Because I can actually make my lists and than fullfill 90% of the tasks and I can actually do stuff which I have to do and which I want to do. I am sooo good I really wanna marry myself and have my own baby!

From Florida to hell

in less than 3 hours.

Yeeey, I am back in Jersey: Everyone is excited? Well that used to be, when I actually had friends. Now the only creature jumping with joy is my dog...and only because I hold his toy waaaay up in the air!

I am actually trying to befriend this crazy chemist guy. But he texts me so randomly. I text him 8am and he writes bach at 3am...it just makes no sence. And even less sence are making my sleeping habist. Not only that I did not sleep two days in the row, but yeaterday I woke up 3.30am , my phone missing and when i finally find it, it was under my pillow opened up on a message which I do not remember I have read. I am going crazy.

This day seems so lonf. Changed states today, but still havent changed my clothes. I guess its time for shower now! Yeeeeey!

Rich people wear tights

I am on the end of the shortest trip ever to Florida. Only 3 days and we are gone! I am soooo happy:)

Today was a nice day. I lay by the pool for two hours, than sit in the grass for two hours and than sat on a stone for an hour. That was about it. Breakfast, lunch and dinner somewhere in between.

Went to a grand prix derby today, which was fun. I am sure Peppera would love to do that, all the jumping uphill and downhill and through the water was amazing. The best part was, when a young, cca 14year old boy went in on his fancy horse. Its just not right. I get it, they have the money, but come on! the horse was worth at least 400 000. At least. And the boy fucked it up anyway. Give me that horse and I will be double clean and leave with 50thousand price money. Ah, life is not fair.

My head hurts terribly and we have a 6am flight. And I have two weekends in a row off:) Will see my boyfriend quite a bit:) Cant wait! Maybe will go to Canada lol.

Shoes and dicks

I admit it. I have never tried to hide it. I like shoes. I love shoes. I love to wear them, buy them, look at them...its because my feet are not standard and I was never able to buy shoes when I was growing up. So now when I have the power of Internet, I have the money and I have the guts to be even taller than I already am, I enjoy spending time looking for and buying shoes.

What I don't understand it, why my boyfriend hates it? He called me a hoarder and hang up on me when I told him that I cant decide if I should by two pairs or three....totally unfair.

On the other hand, he did send me a number for a black guy, with meter long peeper. Is it only me or men make no sense at all?

How I am a failure

Well...I signed out of my gym, the same day I dropped out of school and ate half of a cake. I am a failure!

But it is all good. Because I am pretty, smart and witty. And I am a looser:)

Yesterday at the airport I realized, it was quite a while since I went out to see people. All the "kids" (meaning teenagers) were dressed in tights, high colored socks and weird loafers...I guess that is the new style? To look like...like what? Like Napoleon Dynamite? Or I dunno.

Well, I had to put up a picture. Because this was far the best cake I have ever made. And frankly I do bake a lot. This tasted like Cherry/rum/punch cake, those little truffles were delicious and I did ate half of it. I am a pig. All the baked goods should leave my house immediately. I just love to bake too much...

And at last, as you have noticed, I am gonna go all out and write in English. Because I write crap anyway and I think it should be international. So there.

Hope everyone had a nice Valentines day. It was my first Valentines ever having a loving boyfriend and I must say it was nice. Not the actual day, 14th of February, but our weekend celebration. On the actual Valentines, I had fever, kidney infection and was crying out loud in pain:) not so cool. But the next day I got better, my bbf gave me a big giant flower and half of papaya and I am so happy, that I unmistakeably know, this is all gonna go wrong soon:) Until than - don't worry, be happy, tup tududuuuu...

Digging deep hole

Hmm. Jak že se vlastně mám. Ani nevím.

Taková divná směsice radosti, naštvanosti, očekávání a bezmocnosti. Strašně divný.

Už jsme si někdy říkali že někoho strašně milujete ale víte že z toho nikdy nic nebude? A strašně se přemáhali aby to vydrželo co nejdýl a aby jste si to mohli užít dokud to tady je....a čím víc se toho držíte tím víc se to drolí...

A pak najednou se všechno změní a všude jsou motýlci a krásná hudba a vy se cítíte skvěle...jen aby zase přišla bouřka a všechno smyla..

Už to nechávám být. Protože mě to stojí tolik sil, že jsem pak příliš unavená užívat si ty momenty klidu.

Ale ono všechno bude úžasný. Prostě bude. Protože já si to úžasný udělám ať se to lidem líbí a nebo ne.

Lotsa things happening

Tak kde zacit. Jsem na floride, zase. Systematicky mi to nici vztah ale ja se to snazim ignorovat a byt happy a predstirat ze se to vlastne nedeje. Cim dal vic si uvedomuju ze tohle do budoucna nikdy fungovat nebude, ale misto toho abych se kvuli tomu stresovala to nechavam plavat a az to prijde tak to prijde. Vcera jsem se byla nechat ostrihat. To zase byl zazitek...ale nakonec jsem z tama odesla, na hlave neco prisernyho a modlila se ze az si to umeju tak to bude vypadat lip. Marne? Umyla jsem si vlasy a vypada to jeste hur. No doufejme ze to brzo doroste. Taky jsem tak trochu porusila sve vegetarianstvi, ale z pouhe bolesti a nouze. Prejze v tech tabletach jsou namlety krevety. Jo. Krevety. Tak budu tyden papat kreveti kosticky a i kdyz to porusuje veskere me zasady a presvedceni, budu aspon doufat ze mi to pomuze abych nehresila nadarmo. Hlavne Kluk o tom nesmi vedet, bo by hned jasal a strkal mi do krku kure...