Emo

This living of mine sucks. It goes up and down and back up again. My head is spinning. I don't know what to do.

I try to do my best. I do what makes me happy. I try to keep positive. And what's more, I police everyone to make sure they never feel alone. To make sure they are doing ok.

But these past couple days...who asked me how I was? Who made sure I was not alone? I don't know what else to do. It seems there is never time for my problems. Like they don't exist, or they are not as meaningful as others.

I don't want to be all emo, and "noone cares about me". But the truth is I am hurting. I am hurting more and more and there is no-one to help me out. Just me. Always me. 

Confidence

I stopped caring. In a good sense of that. Or I hope. In the past couple of weeks, I have grown. I have realized that i am the person who has to make myself happy and I have. But with this new realization I might have hurt people. But it is for their own good. For the greater good some would say. Oh well. 

I have been slacking with my life. Hidden in my fox hole, relaxing, not bothering myself with what must come. It did do me good. But now it's time to start living again. Get back to work. 

It's the new improved me. The more beautiful, the more leveled and more openminded me. We will make it. It will be fine. We are still young and beautiful and the world is our playground.