Keep it Simple

Things have changed. I have quit my job, thing I have never done before..I have moved away from my friends once again..and I have started all over again. Why? Good question. Because it was time for me to move on, because it was time for me to build my life back up and most of all - because I really wanted to know if this relationship can work.

All the arguing, all the breaking up, all the blame and tears...it was always there because there was never time to see each other. When there was time we "had to" see each other the whole time, otherwise the trip was not worth it. But now, I live couple miles up the road, we can just grab a lunch and go on with our day...

But, it is still not working. So it is not the distance.

I have a pretty good idea of all the problems on my part, but more and more often I am realizing, that there are some bad bad BAD issues on the other side too. The moodiness, the moodswings, the carelessness, the attitude of doing whatever he wants just to prove me that he can even though it doesnt make sence anymore...I honestly feel like dating a teenager..and I dont know how to cope with that, because I was teenager only for a short time..

The thing I do know is, that I do not want to move on. I am so deep in this, that even though of letting go makes me nauseous.