Which is not really true because I didn't really leave anything untied..But as of right now, I am looking more and more to the past than I did in the past couple years. I am reading old emails, i am looking at old pictures and I am amazed. I just found a video of myself playing a song I made up on piano...and I didn't remember that i actually did that in my life. How strange is that? And it is even stranger that I am not capable of such a thing now. There is no way that I could sit down and create a song for someone. I am just a different person. I cannot take a picture of myself, I cannot paint. i can barely write. A lot of my personality and skills are gone. So i guess my conscience is taking me on a ride back to find myself again...I don't know. But what I know, is that lately I have been having urge to talk to people I haven't talked to in years. Somehow they come up in conversations or a picture on Facebook pops up and I just want to say "hi, how have you been..?"
And so i do. And it is amazing how with some people nothing really changes. they sound the same, they do the same, maybe they do it somewhere else, but it is the same thing. And it just amazes me.
Maybe I can sell it as part of my resolution. Maybe its just following the signs again. I don't really know nor do I care. What is important is that i feel much healthier already. I am starting to believe that everything will turn out just fine :)
And so i do. And it is amazing how with some people nothing really changes. they sound the same, they do the same, maybe they do it somewhere else, but it is the same thing. And it just amazes me.
Maybe I can sell it as part of my resolution. Maybe its just following the signs again. I don't really know nor do I care. What is important is that i feel much healthier already. I am starting to believe that everything will turn out just fine :)
