What a year 2015 was.
Spring:
Spring semester at Cornell was not all that bad. Yes it was stressful as always, but I was already in my tracks and knew my way around.
I fought some demons of the past, put misunderstandings behind me and again got in touch with a very important figure in my life.
I also dreamt about this research project I would like to do, which would be so cool. Oh little did I know how uncool it actually will be.
I carried out my project, planned it, got funding for it, got advisers for it, partnered with another school on it. I did it. To my own amazement I have actually succeeded.
Summer:
I went to Europe. For whole three months. Yes, I worked my ass off, had to keep my head down, had to play by rules. But in the end I got all I needed for my project, met with many people I can call somewhat my friends. I met with extremely smart people which blown my mind.
I have lost my precious mare to my own mistakes and I gave up on life.
I went to Romania.
Now Romania deserves a chapter in my book of life, even though I was only there for three weeks. It had forever changed me. It reignited the fire I had about changing the world. It sobered me, it showed me that nothing really matters in the end. It brought me talks about Africa. It was the smell of coffee. Romania with dirt roads and taste of wild Mirabelle Plums. Piece of my heart stayed in Romania and I will have to return there to pick it up,
I have also talked to my former demon and realized just how foolish I was. I was forced to travel through a wormhole at my sisters wedding.
Fall:
Fall semester went by so quickly. Like looking out the window of a fast train. Just blur of lab coats, lectures and jobs. Vet school applications were tough. Finishing my project was tough. Everything was tough. But at the end I realized that it is not everything. That some things dont matter as much.
I spend much time thinking about the past and future. What do I really want and how can I help the most. What is self sacrifice and what is good for me. I still dont know.
I have also taken one of the weirdest classes ever - intergroup dialogue - which made me hypersensitive to racism and other ways of oppression. I was forced to make peace with my privileges, because I was sure I didn't have any. But I did. Now I am just a little more aware and know that there is much I dont know.
Winter:
I returned to Czech. Enjoyed Christmas and hang out with bunch of friends. I made it my mission to reconnect with as many as possible. I needed to go back to my roots so I can keep regrowing and keep remembering why am I on this earth. People change and change their goals. But the main idea stays the same. I am here to make a change. And I will keep trying.
And what do I wish from 2016? Well that is fairly simple. I want to minimize my stress. Get a dog. Be more active and travel bunch. I want to keep exploring and being excited. I still want to stare wide eyed at all the opportunities one can have in their life. I want to find true love, I want to feel loved. I need that more than anything. Its one of those things we cannot fight for. And I wish I will make the right choices and will always try to follow my heart.
Spring:
Spring semester at Cornell was not all that bad. Yes it was stressful as always, but I was already in my tracks and knew my way around.
I fought some demons of the past, put misunderstandings behind me and again got in touch with a very important figure in my life.
I also dreamt about this research project I would like to do, which would be so cool. Oh little did I know how uncool it actually will be.
I carried out my project, planned it, got funding for it, got advisers for it, partnered with another school on it. I did it. To my own amazement I have actually succeeded.
Summer:
I went to Europe. For whole three months. Yes, I worked my ass off, had to keep my head down, had to play by rules. But in the end I got all I needed for my project, met with many people I can call somewhat my friends. I met with extremely smart people which blown my mind.
I have lost my precious mare to my own mistakes and I gave up on life.
I went to Romania.
Now Romania deserves a chapter in my book of life, even though I was only there for three weeks. It had forever changed me. It reignited the fire I had about changing the world. It sobered me, it showed me that nothing really matters in the end. It brought me talks about Africa. It was the smell of coffee. Romania with dirt roads and taste of wild Mirabelle Plums. Piece of my heart stayed in Romania and I will have to return there to pick it up,
I have also talked to my former demon and realized just how foolish I was. I was forced to travel through a wormhole at my sisters wedding.
Fall:
Fall semester went by so quickly. Like looking out the window of a fast train. Just blur of lab coats, lectures and jobs. Vet school applications were tough. Finishing my project was tough. Everything was tough. But at the end I realized that it is not everything. That some things dont matter as much.
I spend much time thinking about the past and future. What do I really want and how can I help the most. What is self sacrifice and what is good for me. I still dont know.
I have also taken one of the weirdest classes ever - intergroup dialogue - which made me hypersensitive to racism and other ways of oppression. I was forced to make peace with my privileges, because I was sure I didn't have any. But I did. Now I am just a little more aware and know that there is much I dont know.
Winter:
I returned to Czech. Enjoyed Christmas and hang out with bunch of friends. I made it my mission to reconnect with as many as possible. I needed to go back to my roots so I can keep regrowing and keep remembering why am I on this earth. People change and change their goals. But the main idea stays the same. I am here to make a change. And I will keep trying.
And what do I wish from 2016? Well that is fairly simple. I want to minimize my stress. Get a dog. Be more active and travel bunch. I want to keep exploring and being excited. I still want to stare wide eyed at all the opportunities one can have in their life. I want to find true love, I want to feel loved. I need that more than anything. Its one of those things we cannot fight for. And I wish I will make the right choices and will always try to follow my heart.
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